Two Months

If you can't tell by now, I love looking back at my life and seeing where I was to where I currently am.

It's truly an amazing way to see how you've grown.

Eight weeks ago I decided to embark on a life-coaching mentorship with an amazing God loving woman in southern California. It took a crazy long phone call to get me to actually commit. I was scared, I was nervous, I was unsure; I honestly didn't know if I had anything that I could actually gain from the mentorship (except a major dent in my savings).

Friends, can I be honest for a second? It was the BEST, literal all caps, BEST decision I could have made two months ago.

My coach and I were talking this last week as we tied up the past weeks and she reminded me just how far I have come. I couldn't believe all that I've accomplished in the past eight weeks.

I finished my book.

I made a decision to find community and invest roots in Indy.

I started to query agents.

I realized that I wanted to publish my book.

I declared online how I had not only written a book and that I wanted to publish it.

I realized how I wanted to truly spend time writing and sharing others stories.

I started taking my fitness and health seriously again.

I committed to running a 5K in August.

And so many more. 

When I looked back at the past eight weeks, it feels like so much more time had passed. It seemed impossible that so much has happened in such a short amount of time. The girl that I was two months ago seems light years away from where I stand today.

Two months ago I was so unsure. I was unsure of what I was doing with my life. I was unsure of what my calling was. I was unsure of what my next steps were. I was unsure of who I was. I was all around unsure. 

Today, I feel strong. Today, I know what I want to spend my time on. Today, I feel confident in the path that I am on. Today, I am reminded of where my passions lie and what steps are going to help me get there. Today, I am sure. 

Perhaps you've been in this beautiful land of sure-ness for a while, or maybe you're chilling on the island of unsureness. I've been in both; they both can be beautiful at times, they both can be a struggle. One thing is for sure though friends, it takes a lot of commitment, discipline, and some harsh soul searching if you want to get off that island. It can be beautiful, fun and relaxing taking a break from chasing your dreams. It can also take it's toll on you; mentally, spiritually, physically being unsure of what is next. In this land of sureness, I would almost bet you that it's not going to be all sunshine, butterflies and rainbows. It's going to be a struggle to not get distracted by some beautiful new opportunity. It really is. Nonetheless, here I stand, deciding to keep my eyes on the path in front of me, yes I may wander, I've been known to in the past and chances are, I will again in the future. All in all, I really like this state of sure.

I think I'll stay here a while.