Not-So-Secret Secret

I've been sitting on this post for quite some time now. There's quite a few of you that already know, I haven't kept it a total secret. But there's also a lot of you that don't.

I realized the minute I made this public, everyone would know. Everyone who follows my life in real time or on social media would hear this dream that I have, that I hold so dear to my heart and know that I was chasing it.

What if it doesn't happen?

What if I fail?

What if I fall? 

These were just some of the question that floated through my mind. That was until I realized something: I realized the whole reason that I have a blog, that I use social media (aside from staying in touch with people) is to share about my life and to hope that it encourages others to chase after their dreams and live a little differently.

So here it goes.

I wrote a book.

Yes, a whole book. One that is full of little bits of my heart. One that shares hundreds of stories of my life from late high school to college, to my time in Washington, DC, to my time around the world. One that is full of stories of falling in love with another person to falling in love with a city that I've never been to. One that is full of what it's been like to struggle with perfection and to learn to love my body. One that is bursting at the seams with dreams of mine; some that I have chased and have flourished and others that have slammed the door in my face.

This writing process came at a pivotal time in my life. A time when I needed to reflect and decide where I was heading.

I've realized where I'm going, I'm chasing after agents like they're a fresh pot of coffee on a cool spring morning. I'm chasing after those that have done this publishing thing before to hear their stories and to gauge what I'm getting myself into. Most importantly, I'm chasing after a beloved dream.

While I haven't found a agent just yet, I wanted to share this with you. I think it's so important to welcome others into your journey and to allow them to be a part of it too. Here's my ask, my sweet friends, I would love for you to join me in this: whatever that looks like for you. Do you have experience in the publishing world? I would love to hear about it! Do you know someone who does? Please connect us! If or when my name crosses your mind I would love for you to join me in prayer that the right agent hears from me and wants to take a chance on my story. That the right publisher wants to share my story. Please pray that the words that are written will touch all the lives and more that my book is intended for.

It's a scary journey, letting others into your past, present and future, but it's humbling one, a growing one. And I'm ready for it.